Joey M. Joseph, Shamanic Reiki & Karuna™ Master Teacher

"ha nee chee wa she" (I am she who grows souls)


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Counting the days!

I don’t think of Joe as sick, and when the word cancer comes up, I don’t believe he is that. I see him as I always have, even while I am taking care of his body, or exhausted from emotion. I still know we are not who we think we are. I have always believed that life is a map to the soul. The whole experience is a mirror of whatever the story is inside. Some days I think, why did I choose this story, or how did this story choose me? Things don’t happen to us, they are created for us. The story seems to be an illusion of something greater beneath it. The energy of what we do is cathartic, going for treatments and letting the energy flow through, out the other side.

Staying in the moment is very challenging. I cannot risk going forward, even for a moment.

Joe counts the days until the first part of treatment ends, which is very close, a matter of a few days. Despite side-effects being challenging, he is responding well.  I am grateful, he can let it go. I am proud of him for walking this road, and as hard as it “appears”, we are living each day as we always have.  I know things are an illusion, the body is a container for the soul, we are all one in spirit. I can’t be more enlightened than I am. I am where I am, I get angry, tired and frustrated. I don’t let it become me, I am passionate and emotional, no one can tell me to stop it, It isn’t possible for me to not feel everything so deeply.

We get to have a long healing period before the next step in his treatment  we are both looking forward to! We can recharge and boost him up for the next phase!

I included a link to my latest article, in Arizona Networking News, August/September issue.  I wrote this at the very start of it all. I titled it “Being present with cancer”. Due to publishing standards I am not allowed to share until it is published. Thank you for taking the time to share with us, I am deeply honored, incredibly lucky and very blessed!

Being present with cancer

 

 


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Take your medicine

Modern medicine has made it possible to prolong life.  It is giving my husband and I a chance to continue our life together. I believe God is in Every thing. Medicine comes in many forms, opening up portals of experience, teaching us who we are and our relationship to our Creator.

I see Joe taking his “medicine”, and I know it is his journey. It isn’t easy for either of us, we show up every day and go for it. I am not enlightened enough to say I have been okay through all this, on the contrary, some days I am stressed to the max and I think there is no more room in here for anything.

Just when I think I am incapable of any more to “do” I am faced with another opportunity! I reflect later after all is said and I realize that we are never given more than we can handle and suddenly I felt blessed to be so strong. God has given me a purpose and enough energy to fulfill the tasks at hand, the universe believes in the power that created me, and I felt happy, which brought me a choice, I could do things and grumble, or I could do it with love, Guess what I chose?

In the words of Ellen, a friend I met at chemotherapy, Love trump’s all things!

Amen to that!

 

 


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Surrender

Life has changed so much. Care taking is the ability to surrender everything over to the moment. Learning to drop what you are doing and give the attention needed is the lesson I am learning. There is no time to second guess, you just  do it!

Compassion is what drives me. I don’t want to miss one moment of this process. We have met many courageous souls on this journey, so willing to share their stories. In these people I see bravery, and a willingness to live.

It is so hard to see someone you love suffering, it is up to me to be at peace so he can find his way through. My big strong man is letting go, what a beautiful thing to witness. He is gone into the dark, only to find his light.

you gotta love that!